Instinct…. Or Holy Spirit?

Something amazing happened to me today and i just have to share it…

Just another testimony of how God is ALWAYS with us….

So today i had an interview for a part time job… When i applied the way it was worded made it look like it was for a job that caters for events such as Royal Ascot, Olympics etc, so i was under the impression that i’d either be helping with the organising of the events or either serving at the events… Either way i have experience with the both so i clicked ‘Apply’. I was called 2 days later about the position and somewhere in the conversation he threw in that it may involve some ‘Cold Calling Telesales’…. Hmmmm…. I’m not the greatest with Telesales, i actually never answer my home telephone because its almost always an operator calling to talk to me about an accident that i’ve supposedly had in the last 3 years *side eye*… But i thought let me not knock it until i actually go and speak about the role further, so i accepted the interview.

As the days rolled closer to the interview date i was starting to think “Telelsales really isn’t me… Am i wasting my time???” But i always turned it around on my head and thought “In this climate, a job is a job, stop being so fussy and be grateful for the opportunity….”

The Interview was today…

This morning i was so apprehensive and really didn’t want to go, i was constantly talking to God and saying “Lord, why am i so unsure about this job? Why is it heavy on my heart that i don’t want to go?”… But i heard no response from my Father… So i just prayed and said “Lord…. I know you hear me, and you know my thoughts and doubts. If this is not your will father please show me a sign or direct this day according to your plan. Amen”

My interview was at 2:30pm… 1:45pm i was still laying in a full bath of bubbly water thinking i really don’t want to go lol… Luckily it was a 10min walk away, so i quickly got myself dressed and headed to this office.

As i got nearer my heart was pounding to the point i could hear it in my ears, i believed it was just nerves so just shook it off, pressed the buzzer to the office and entered.

As i entered the small office, i felt like someone grabbed me at the throat… It was hot, stuffy, i felt feint… Their was a heaviness in the atmosphere that i’d never felt before…

I was asked to be seated and fill in a form and wait to be called into the office as i was next. I had to open my jacket, i couldn’t understand why i was struggling to breathe, i actually felt like i was on the brink of having a panic attack, and i don’t have those often! As i was filling out the form i looked up… Plastered all over the walls in capital prints, was all the lies you must tell to sell your event package…

*ONLY SPEAK TO THE MD OR SUPERVISOR

*TELL THEM YOUR NAME AND SAY THEY ARE EXPECTING YOUR CALL

*IF THEY ASK WHAT ITS REGARDING, TELL THEM ITS A PERSONAL MATTER AND CAN ONLY BE DISCUSSED WITH THE PERSON YOU ASKED FOR

This was only some of what was written on their… I know cold calling Telesales is generally like this but sitting in the surroundings and seeing what they do being on the other side of that phone call…. I just couldn’t do it!! The lies ontop of lies they have to tell phone call after phone call… This is not me!! I then started to overhear the conversations on the phones around me “Hi there, i’m calling because i have just had a cancellation for a VIP Package for the Royal Ascot and thought of you….”… LIES!!! You thought of 3 other people before that person…

By this point my hands where sweaty and shaking, the stuffiness was getting to me, i went to pull at my neck to undo my scarf… Only to realise i didn’t even have one on! The final thing that got to me is that there was 2 girls standing behind me next to the door buzzer… The door buzzer went off and she cried out “JESUS CHRIST IN HELL, that scared me…” …. Erm what? Sorry? What did i just here? Blasphemy at its finest… I was so choked i really couldn’t comprehend what was happening around me… I HAD to get out of there…..

Luckily for me the interview was booked for 2:30pm, i arrived at 2:20pm and by 2:53pm i still hadn’t been seen. I was called into the office at 2:59pm and i had to calmly say “I’m so sorry, my daughters school finishes in 20mins and i didn’t realise i’d be here until now, is it ok if i call you to re-arrange another slot?”…. The manager kindly apologised and asked me to call him when i can as my CV was interesting. I rushed out as quickly as i could, obviously they must of thought i was running for the school run but i seriously just had to get OUT!! As soon as fresh air hit me i felt safe… The heaviness was gone… I have never walked home so fast in my life!!!

As soon as i got home… I didn’t even take my shoes and my jacket off… I just stood in my kitchen and cried out  “Thank You Father, Thank you for showing me your faithfulness, Thank you for showing me your Glory, Thank you for always being with me in any situation.. Thank you thank you thank you!!” ….

I cried…. Tears of Joy… Because our Father is amazing. Even when we don’t hear him he hears us. He ALWAYS answers prayers and is ALWAYS with us. I can’t explain what i felt in that office, all i know is that is wasn’t for me, i wasn’t meant to be there, and God revealed that to me.

The Holy Spirit is all powerful…. Is all knowing…. Is all seeing… Never underestimate his works and what he can do..

Thank you Holy Spirit….

xxGBxx

I’m Back!!

The enemy can’t hold me down!

 

Its been a LOOOONNNNGGG time!!

I went on an amazing holiday to Jamaica back in December last year, i returned January of this year and it seemed like Satan just wanted to turn my world upside down.. 😦

I was meant to have a kitchen fitted whilst i was gone but i came home to an undone and upside down home, also with me being self employed funds where low as i had been away, and to top it off i had a problem with a finger on my hand which the doctors where thinking may be Arthritis!! It was just one thing after the other and at times like this i don’t really like to share, i prefer to withdraw within myself… I hate walking around pretending to smile when inside i’m crying, and theres no way i’m going to walk around with a frown on my face, so i just tend to hibernate away from everyone…

But then when i finally came out of my hole (lol) and attended Church i received an amazing word from God…

The sermon Topic was : When you reach the end of your rope… Reading from 2 Kings 4:1-7..

“1 A certain woman of the wives of the sons of the prophets cried out to Elisha, saying, “Your servant my husband is dead, and you know that your servant feared the Lord. And the creditor is coming to take my two sons to be his slaves.”

2 So Elisha said to her, “What shall I do for you? Tell me, what do you have in the house?” And she said, “Your maidservant has nothing in the house but a jar of oil.”

3 Then he said, “Go, borrow vessels from everywhere, from all your neighbors—empty vessels; do not gather just a few. 4 And when you have come in, you shall shut the door behind you and your sons; then pour it into all those vessels, and set aside the full ones.”

5 So she went from him and shut the door behind her and her sons, who brought the vessels to her; and she poured it out. 6 Now it came to pass, when the vessels were full, that she said to her son, “Bring me another vessel.” And he said to her, “There is not another vessel.” So the oil ceased.

7 Then she came and told the man of God. And he said, “Go, sell the oil and pay your debt; and you and your sons live on the rest.” (NKJV)

Wow…. This teaching showed me that God can move in unimaginable ways… Even when we think there is no other way to turn God already has it planned out for us! When you trust in God, don’t worry where you fall. No matter where you are he’ll pick you up. When you trust in God he will ALWAYS come through for you. Its always that moment when you are about to give up, that he shows up and shows out!

2 Corinthians 1:3-7

“Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, 

4 who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. 

5 For as the sufferings of Christ abound in us, so our consolation also abounds through Christ. 6 Now if we are afflicted, it is for your consolation and salvation, which is effective for enduring the same sufferings which we also suffer. Or if we are comforted, it is for your consolation and salvation. 

7 And our hope for you is steadfast, because we know that as you are partakers of the sufferings, so also you will partake of the consolation”

No matter what you are going through, God is our comforter and will always see us through… Our biggest problem is that we don’t actually trust him enough! We have to trust him in EVERY aspect of life. When you reach the end of your rope, turn to God, but don’t wait until then to turn to him, make sure he is on the rope with you, so he’s always holding you up…

xxGBxx

God Hears You…

So since turning 30 (4 days ago!) I’ve felt different… More spiritual… Spiritually growing… I’ve become closer with God and my head hasn’t left the scriptures… Everyday I’m feeding myself with his word… I questioned him on Sunday saying ‘Lord, how do I know what my Spiritual Gift is?’… Then yesterday my pastor handed me this booklet… God hears your cries and questions all the time, he will always answer or give you a way to find the answer, just as he did with me yesterday…

He is unfailing…

He is mighty…

He is miraculous…

He is God…

x x GB x x

Righteousness vs Holiness

It was bugging me that I couldn’t get a fine definition between Holiness and Righteousness…. So I did a little research and thought I’d share….

Holiness

“To be holy is to be distinct, separate in a class by oneself. The one who is holy is uniquely holy with no rival or competition. To be holy is to be morally pure. When things are made holy they are consecrated, set apart unto purity, and to be used in a pure way….. Holiness means uniqueness(set apart)… Means belonging to God(dependant on him)… And Means living with him (in obedience to him)”

Holiness means wholeness, fulness, beauty and abundance. God lacks nothing. He is unbroken, undamaged, unfallen, completely complete and entire within himself. He is the invisible one, wholly self-sufficient, and the picture of perfection. The holiness of God indicates God does not accept what is not holy, all he accepts from us is that which he produces in and through us. As Christians we strive to be of him… For him to empty us of us and fill us with him…. Therefore it now makes sense to me why the first 4 of the 10 commandments which were about God, is all about holiness…

Some verses to study about holiness- Isaiah 6, 2 Corinthians 2-7, 1 Samuel 2:2 amongst others…

Righteousness

Righteousness is a state of moral perfection required by God. Human beings cannot achieve righteousness through their own efforts (hence why I believe God gave those first four commandments about him and holiness, once you have that foundation and relationship with him you can succeed in righteousness and fulfil/stick to the remainder of the commandments)

Righteousness is received through the faith of Christ as Saviour… This doctrine is called ‘Imputation’ …. His perfect righteousness is applied to imperfect humans. Salvation through his crediting of righteousness is a gift (Grace, which NO other religion offers!) Righteousness is leading a life that’s pleasing to God… It is an attribute of him, which it’s chief meaning is “ethical conduct”… The Hebrew word for Righteousness is ‘Tzedek’… The definition of it is righteous, integrity, equity, justice and straightness…. With the ‘root’ (Tsaw-Dak) meaning being upright, just, straight, innocent, true and sincere.

The first type of righteousness is achieved by believing in Gods word (John 6:63) Reading, Believing, and understanding whatsoever is said in the Bible is ABSOLUTE TRUTH. We must believe in his word because it gives us life! Second type of righteousness is gained by doing… Which is also brings us into the GRACE of God…. It’s a continuous process, we may fall many times but his promise is that he’ll NEVER abandon us… We must READ, UNDERSTAND and APPLY the bible into our lives because as its said in Hebrews 2:11 “We must pay more attention, therefore, to what we have heard, so that we do not drift away”

Apply his word into our lives in order for us to walk before God and be blameless…. Plant his word as a seed and let our gardener (Jesus) prune and shape it to his own desire…

Matthew 5:20, Romans 3:20, Leviticus 19:36, Deuteronomy 25:1 to name a few on Righteousness….

Redemptive names of the lord

Jehovah Elohim ~ The Lord God, Our Redeemer and Creator

Jehovah Jirah ~ The Lord who Provides

Jehovah Elyon ~ The Lord Most High

Jehovah Rapha ~ The Lord that Heals

Jehovah Shalom ~ The Lord of Peace

Jehovah Nissi ~ The Lord our Banner

Jehovah Kanna ~ The Lord that is Jealous

Jehovah Mekaddeskum ~ That Lord that Sanctifies

Jehovah Raah/Roi ~ The Lord our Shepard

Jehovah Shaphat ~ The Lord our Judge

Jehovah Hosenu ~ The Lord our Maker

Jehovah Saboath ~ The Lord of Hosts

Jehovah Gibbor ~ The Lord is Mighty

Jehovah Tsidkenu ~ The Lord our Righteousness

Jehovah Shammah ~ The Lord is There and Everpresent

x x GB xx

 

Forgiving From The Heart

“This is how my heavenly Father will treat each of you unless you forgive your brother or sister from the heart…” Matthew 18:35

So i was reading Matthew the other day and this verse stood out to me… How do you forgive from the heart?

I can honestly say Forgiveness is one of the hardest things in the world to do. Before i was saved forgiveness was just not an option for some of my ‘enemies’ or people i no longer spoke to…. The pain and hurt they caused me, why would i want to forgive them? I remember it got to the point where seeing them, hearing/seeing their name, or anything that associated with them would make my blood boil… My heart would race and this sense of anger would just come over me that reminding me of the hatred i had towards them!

But isn’t Gods grace amazing??? 🙂

Since becoming saved I finally understand what true forgiveness is. Unforgiveness is like a disease, its toxic, its damaging, and the only person it hurts is YOU!! All the negative feelings that you have towards that person does not affect them one bit. Forgiveness is not an option, its required for your salvation, It is also not possible to forgive on your own, the foundation of Forgiveness comes from Grace….

Jesus forgave us for our multitude of sins, we must become God-like and accept that all humans are broken and imperfect, we must have the understanding that everyone has their faults and flaws…

When we don’t forgive others, we are setting ourselves outside and above Christ’s law of love…

Anyone that has hurt, betrayed or done you wrong…. Forgive them today. Not just verbally, but from the heart. Pray and ask God for help with understanding forgiveness, pray and ask for healing, ask for transformation and courage. This is not something that will just happen overnight… But by asking for help from our Lord, he will touch your heart…

Prayer for you:

“Lord, you know my pain, you know my struggles. I understand the importance of forgiveness and i thank you for your grace by which i am forgiven… It is hard to forgive as my wounds are so deep and painful… I ask for your healing power, ask for your help with transforming my heart and mind… Help me to forgive those who have wronged me… All praises onto you Heavenly Father…. Amen”

x x GB x x

Spirit…. Soul…. Flesh…

Theres been something on my heart that I learnt in Sunday School a couple weeks ago and I feel like sharing…

 

You are made of 3 elements… You are a Spirit, that owns a Soul, inside a body. You will always be fighting 2 against 1, either Soul & Body vs Spirit, or Spirit & Soul vs Body… Your Spirit must ALWAYS win as the Spirit is eternal. Feed your Spirit with the word, water it, keep it strong. Do not live a defeated life by not spending enough time with our Heavenly Father. How do you live Holy and feed your Spirit in a world of Ungodliness??? By prayer, fasting, and living by HIS word…

 

Be mindful of what you watch, read and hear, negative/derogative TV, Magazines and Music all affects your Spirit… EVERYTHING you watch or hear feeds your Spirit, ensure it is healthy, it is positive, and most of all OF GOD… As David once said ‘I will set before my eyes no vile thing’…

 

Say a prayer this week:

 

Father God,
My spirit feels hungry. I confess that what I have been feeding my spirit has simply been junk food. I long for Your filling. Show me treasures in Your Word as I make time for You this week. Fill me up, by the power of Your Holy Spirit, and help me not to settle for less.
In Jesus’ name I pray, Amen.

 

Just some scriptures:-

 

1 John 2:16

Hebrews 4:12

Romans 8:11

 xx GB xx

Finally!!!

So I finally managed to start my blog!!

I’ve been tweeting and Facebooking about this for a while now… But praise God its finally set it up!

I wanted a place where I can just type freely about what is on my mind, especially when it comes to Christ… Yes I love using Twitter but theres only so much you can put in 140 characters… And on FB people don’t tend to click on ‘Continue Reading’ lol

Here I will share my Bible Study, Testimonies, Church experiences, Quotes, Pictures, do Polls, meet fellow Christians, my thoughts and visions… Just another platform to share the word and the love of our Lord Saviour… Please feel free to send questions, comments or Prayer Requests to PasionPorCristoUK@gmail.com

Hope you enjoy the journey, i’m so excited!!

xx GB xx (God Bless)